Ok so im 18 and half way through my senior year of highschool. I've only started smoking and drinking about 6 months ago. I dont do it every day, infact i havent drank since New Years. I smoke weed about once a week. Since I've started, I've gotten better grades and am not nearly stressed out as much anymore, obviously. However this past saturday night, my parents wouldnt let me go out and do what i wanted (i asked to go over to a friends!). I was really upset and didnt talk to them for 2 days. Typical teenager and parent arguments. But it was monday night wihen I first opened a journal my dying grandmother gave me for my 18th birthday and began to write. I didn't write alot, just about how i have these new habits and how I've changed, then i wrote a short little song. While i was writing my mom came into my room to drop off clothes and saw i was writing. I guess that morning she felt she had to come into my room while i was at school and read my journal. Which makes me so upset, not the fact that she did it, but the fact it was from my sick grandmother...i dont know its just so personal and now it has a bad rap. ANYWAYS, so she obviously found out about the new things i've doing and told my dad. That night we had a chat and they gave me an altimatum and here it is... A) Have all the freedoms that i desire, make my own decisions and still be able to live at my house. So basically go out when i want and do what i want. Which is so enticing. However the catch, My car is only to be used to get to school and they wont pay for me to go to college. Now i have bright futures, that will pay for 75% of my college fee's but i wont have the Florida Pre-Paid that my parents have been saving up for years. I havent gotten in anywhere yet, but i should know soon. I mean i kind of feel i am ready for the independence, i have been sheltered all my life, maybe trying to make it on my own will throw some responsibility i need to one day be a full adult. I have had a job since i was 16 and even with their money, i will still have to have a job while im up there. If need be i can always get a few student loans and apply for scholarships. Not only that i argued last night to my dad, that education shouldnt be a bargaining chip and i got him to agree, so maybe they will pay for college. I know it is a privellage a lot of people would love to have. B.) choice B, how i hate it so much. Live at home, limited freedoms with their choice of telling me i cant go out if they so chose. But i get to keep my car, and keep money for school. However if i dont do well in school, i have to come home and go to a community college or not at all. So i feel like if choose B I'm betting on something that isnt even solid. I didnt even get to the catch yet!!! I have to take drug tests to prove that im "clean". I dont know for how long, probably until i build up their trust again, and i dont know how often. Im not happy about it at all, i really dont want to do them, i think it's kind of rediculous. How much do they really think i do it???? lol crazy. Anyways i'm at a loss and i'd really love to hear what some of you guys think.